Old age is Cruel… So live while you Can

Although no one can reject it… nor deny it… nor prevent it, aging is inevitable. And old age is cruel! It is filled with frailness and decay. Yes it is filled with wisdom, but what is wisdom without the body and mind to live it.

Our health starts fading day by day and even if we manage to escape Alzheimer’s or pulmonary disease or congestive heart failure or dementia still everyday life chores will become harder as the days go by. And whilst we become wretched and weak, our self-definition will eventually change or might even disappear and we start feeling useless and insignificant and helpless.

Thus, it eventually will makes sense that we would become angry and depressed and our personality traits will begin to intensify… becoming more demanding and critical and intolerant… becoming less sensitive of people’s feelings, because nothing will matter anymore.

I sure do not want to grow into that… I do not want to be dependent on anyone or feel like a burden on anyone at my old age.

In his book The Light in the Heart, Roy T. Bennett wrote “If you want to be happy, do not dwell in the past, do not worry about the future, focus on living fully in the present.

But even if all that is unavoidable, I do want to get off my ass and do something now… while I still can and before it is too late and I am too tired for that. I need to start changing my life and travel and be able to breath.  I want to live my dreams and experiences and my utmost fucked-up fantasies and sexuality now, while I still have it in me to do so. I want to be comfortable in my own skin and say fuck it more often to the bad energy in my life. I want to be remembered as strong and lively and happy. I don’t want to live the day when I say, I wish I got off my ass and took that damn risk in doing this or that… I want to do all that while I still can recognize myself when I look in the mirror and not an older version of who I was.

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  1. As an Ophthalmic Technician for a glaucoma doctor – my patient demographic is retired folks. You are 100% right; they have no mouth filter and dare you to talk back lol. But, I also have some of the sweetest patients that have been through the hardest tragedies and are just the best kind of people that you want to be around.

    Absolutely live your best life while you can. With a dead father at the age of 50, an uncle at the age of 45, and countless friends in their 20’s and 30’s … it really does drive home the realization that “you might not have tomorrow” ….. so, make today count.


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