I understand!

Our lives have intertwined in ways that cannot be unbinded; we’ve seen the love, the hate and the stagnation in between. Most of the time we try to forget what was said and the details of what was done, but Maya Angelou once said, people will never forget how you made them feel. And this... Continue Reading →

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It is definitely on me

Given the history of my marriage and my constant failed trails to making it work, it is what it is, I accepted abuse! Maybe because of his witful ways of always making me feel not good enough or that it is me who pushed him over the edge and made him violent ... maybe because... Continue Reading →

Loneliness

I sit here in the bedroom, with something going on on the TV in the background. I have put the kids to bed after running the daily chores of motherhood. I wanted a person to talk to, but u had already told me that i'm a disruption to ur time. That my interruptions are not... Continue Reading →

Do i have something valuable to add?

Dear Husband, You came home late last night. I am guessing you were still at that conference, or maybe left and went somewhere after that. Could a conference last until 12 midnight? Maybe, how would I know? I tried not to ask so much. But, you came back, expecting me to be all sweet and welcoming. I... Continue Reading →

The ‘You and I’ romantic trip – Part 1.

Dear Husband, Do you remeber this trip? The one i was begging for for 6 years since we got married. The one you finally agreed to travel with me on when i was 7 months pregnant and made me stay half of it in a country i have already visited in a place i didn't... Continue Reading →

Affected by your look

Dear Husband I cant help but get affected by the way u shake your head when i start talking. The despise on ur face when you hear anything i say is like a knife through my soul. I hold my breath and start talking so fast to get my thoughts out, they come out crumbled... Continue Reading →

Will you ever give me Satisfaction?

Dear Husband, What is it with you narcissistic people? Do enjoy not giving comfort to others? Is it satisfactory for you to belittle the person when they are right and degrade them when they are wrong? We havent been talking (except for necessities) the past week, and yet here i am waiting for a validation... Continue Reading →

KARINA, my husband’s friend

Dear Husband, I write you this since you have denied me the right to even talk to you about it. You have threatened me painful threats if I do dare to talk about her. Told me that your relationship with her is your thing and too deep for my humble mind to understand. You have... Continue Reading →

Dear Husband, should I care?

You came home after some business meeting today and you looked pretty ill. If it were anyone else I would have been attentive, I would have sprung up and brought you food, a warm drink and cradled with love and a kiss. But you aren't anyone else. You are the husband who blamed me when... Continue Reading →

The Need for approval is Toxic

Dear Husband, I am tried of waiting for your approval after 10 years of marriage. For you to fall in love with me again or maybe ever. I am tried of waiting for you to appreciate me and my mind. To value me as a person, wife and mother. To think of me as someone... Continue Reading →

Dear Husband

I have been in tears all morning, thinking of what you think of me and what you made me think of myself. That i am a mindless, philosophy-less, immature shame of a wife. That i will and never accomplish anything because i have no focus. That i will never be appreciated nor respected by you.... Continue Reading →

Dear Husband,

I love being in love and i hate being in love with you You hurt and crush You somehow burn the love Isn't it hard being so passionately  cruel I understand the boredom and understand the airless life we have. i feel a hole in my gut and breath with a stone down my throat... Continue Reading →

A letter to Myself

Remember these thoughts as the days pass by, and promise yourself you will read them more often than you should. 1. You will not believe in anything simply because you've heard it and it is rumored by many. You will not believe in anything simply on the authority of your teachers and elders. But after... Continue Reading →

What am I doing?

Dear Husband, I write you here the things I am denied to tell u in person, the words that when I utter I am berated and belittled. I am constantly asked shut-up or threatened to be called names or beaten. This will be my venting world that I am disallowed in reality. You say I am... Continue Reading →

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